I'm just sitting here at work waiting for 5 pm to roll around. I have 35 more minutes to sit here. On my way home I need to stop and get pepsi and stop by the leasing office to make my appointment to renew my lease, as well as picking up the package that arrived today. It's my Hebrew Bible. I'm really excited because we're going to start reading out of it at Hebrew lessons tomorrow night and it's come just in time. Ken got a tooth pulled yesterday and he's on pain killers. Today was a very quiet day and I got alot of work orders done. I had maybe 3 calls all day. My son is at Tyrina's house again. He's obsessed with that girl. I really hope she doesn't break his heart. I hope that when it ends (as first loves usually do), it's HIS decision. Either that or it's mutual. I worry so much about him. I love him so much. I know I need to step back and let him grow. But I want to be there to catch him if he falls too. I suppose all mothers feel this way... it's just he's getting so much older so fast and every day he grows up more and more. and then in other ways, he's still so young and innocent. Sometimes at night when i'm in bed reading he'll come in and sit on the floor next to my bed and we'll talk for hours. He often asks me for advice on things and it reminds me how he really is so young and it makes me happy that he will talk to me like he does. He may not always let me hug him. but i know he needs me because of our talks. Anyway, I pray that his first love will not become his first heart break. I know there's nothing I can do about that though until it happens. I'm so tired i may go to bed early tonight. signing off for now. it's almost time to leave.