I'm so tired today. Coffee and pop have done nothing to wake me. I want to go home but i'm stuck here at work for another 20 minutes. Is there anybody even out there? Does anyone read this? I never get comments anymore. Doesn't matter i guess. i'll just talk to myself like i always do. or talk to the voices. i was telling them to shut the fuck up today. i can't stand them anymore. i'll be singing a song inside my head and they will slip in words i don't want to think about, changing the meaning of what i'm singing in my head. it's offensive and always dirty or mean. i want them to stop putting thoughts in my head or saying things that take what i'm thinking and turn it into something bad. i'm SICK OF IT. sometimes i just want to bash my own brains in. a 9mm would do nicely. sigh.. i guess it's not 9mm bad quite yet but damnit i'm sick of the stupid voices. and i don't care who hears me talking to them anymore. if someone thinks i'm a freak because of it then so be it. i AM a freak. i've accepted that. now the world just needs to accept that about me. if they can't well then screw them. i'm doing the best i can. i'm not going to give up. not yet. but i WISH THEY'D SHUT THE FUCK UP!!!!