Well, yesterday I called the insurance company back for more details on what was required for my surgery. They said that my BMI has to be more than 40 (it is), that I have to be between 18 and 60 (i am), that my family doctor has to refer me (he did), that I have to have documented 12 months of doctor supervised diet and exercise (sigh.. another year to wait), a psych evaluation (that won't be hard) and there has to be something wrong with me caused by my weight. like diabetes, or sleep apnea, or GERD. I have GERD but i don't think that's enough. I have a sleep study on the 11th so i'm hoping that I have sleep apnea... lol I'm actually hoping for something to be wrong with me. Hell i'd even take diabetes as long as it goes away with weight loss. Pathetic aren't i? Just damn desperate is all.
At any rate I have more to look forward to. My baptism will be sometime this summer (to be announced), Yusef will be visiting in August, and Cari is coming to live with me in August too! Also, I'm thrilled because I have a bunch of really pretty veils/scarves to wear to synagogue. They came in the mail yesterday. I was thinking i'd wait to start wearing them until i'm baptised.. as a kind of symbolic meaningful thing.. but i'm too impatient so i'm wearing one starting this Shabbat. (grin)... they are so pretty!
Desiree and I are getting along ok but I don't really trust her yet. I still have lingering memories of when she tried to get me fired. but she's been having a tough time with Rich, (her boyfriend she lives with who also worked here)... he got fired on friday and she's really upset. so i've been trying to comfort her and stuff. i know she's just using me for emotional support and someone to talk to while at work but I'm a Messianic Gentile Believer now and I feel I should try to help her, regardless of our not so great past. Compassion is a good thing... even when bestowing it upon your enemies..