Well, the National Schizophrenia Foundation headquartered here in Lansing called me. Remember they met me at the airport on my way to the Dr. Phil Show and took my picture with the CEO and the packet of information he was giving me? She'd said (Laura) that they were going to put me in the newsletter. Which is fine.. but today she called and asked if I would be willing to talk to reporters to do a news story!... I am suddenly becoming the schizophrenia poster child. I told them yes, i would talk to reporters, after all, i did just go on international television and tell everyone i have schizophrenia. the one thing i've tried so hard to hide for 17 years is suddenly public knowledge and that scares me quite a bit. Well anyway, it also increases the chance that people in Lansing will find out because while not everyone watches the Dr. Phil Show, almost ALL of them watch the local evening news!!! I'm scared and nervous but if I can help someone by coming forward then I will be doing a good thing. I hope this is what God wants me to do. It seems like ever since i said i turn control of my life over to God these things have started happening. Maybe it's what He wants me to do. I've never heard of God telling someone "you're fine right where you are... relax"... God's always saying things like "ARISE!!! AND GO FORTH!!!" lol... well i'm getting the boot kicking the ass feeling. Maybe this is why I was plagued with schizophrenia.. for this. to try to reach people. Sigh... i'm scared but i have to trust that God is leading me this way for a reason.