Well here i am again, at work watching the clock. 2 more hours to go until i can go home and do the same thing that i do at work.... talk online. lol. At least my pointy haired boss is on vacation. woo hoo! Julie is still with me though she's talking about trying to get into a shelter. I guess the shelter would offer counseling for her and robyn and also give them housing assistance. she got fired from her job over the weekend. i really don't mind her staying with me... my only complaint is she keeps mooching klonopins (like valium) from me. i told her last night that was the last one i'd give her. i had to hide the bottle in my bedroom so she won't take any. i love my sister dearly but she has been known to steal sedatives and pain killers from people. I asked the travel agency to courier Maz's tickets to him today. It was night there though so the travel agent won't get the email until tonight (my time). I think it's easier this way. This way Maz doesn't have to go downtown, which, in every city of the world is a pain in the ass. lol. I see my pdoc tomorrow morning. I printed off some information about a drug called Provigil (modafinil). I'm going to ask for it. It increases wakefulness and helps schizophrenics (like ME!) to remember things. I could definitely use help with that and the wakefulness bit... i'm always so tired during the day at work that i sometimes fall asleep sitting up! damn meds anyhow. i need one drug to counteract another drug and another drug to counteract THAT drug.. and sigh.. i'm already a walking pharmaceutical cocktail so i might as well add one more to the list. anyway, i was bad on my diet again this week. i probably gained again. they wanted me to journal everything i'm eating this week but no way. it's bad enough i feel guilty for eating a cupcake, much less having to WRITE DOWN that i ate one too! oh well. it was just one. i've been eating lean cuisines and tuna fish all week.. except... for... that... little tiny bit of taco bell i had on friday night (blushing madly). i'm hopeless. i might as well just accept that i'm fat and get used to it. i've lost all enthusiasm for this diet.